Red eye Makeup 

I’ve been loving red eyeshadows for quite a while but never really had the chance to try it out as I thought I don’t own one but apparently I do wtf. My 88 color palette cool matte eyeshadow has this brownish looking colour but its actually reddish. 


  • The Body Shop’s Instablur all-in-one primer
  • lancôme’s Teint Idole Ultra 24H foundation in no. 01 Beige Albatre
  • Maybelline’s Clear Smooth All In One Shine Free Cake Powder in no. 01 Nude Beige
  • bH Cosmetics 88 Color Palette Cool Matte Eyeshadow
  • The Body Shop’s Liquid Eyeliner in no. 1
  • Catrice Kohl Kajal pencil in no. 040 White

I love this look to be honest, especially this day I looked really pretty – its shame I didn’t take more photos >.< I was already late

{I just blent in the red all over my eye lid and blent it away to make my eyes look longer. To highlight, I’d suggest avoiding white. I used a very small amount of shimmery pink eyeshadow on the brow bone and the middle of my eyelid and blent it really well}
Yesterday I repeated the same makeup look, because I woke up at 9am and had nothing better to do than play with makeup. However, I changed it up a bit. 

I used a purple eyeshadow before the red on the outer V of the lid to give more depth and used Wet’n’Wild’s megaprotein Mascara on my lower lashes only.

The Body Shop’s instablur primer could actually be used as an eyeshadow primer, makes the eyeshadows more vibrant and it makes all of my make up last longer so it would probably do the same with eyeshadow 😛

I added a little bit of Catrice’s Sun Glow Matte Bronzing Powder for Light Skin alond my jawline and sides of my nose and Wet’n’Wild’s coloricon lipliner in no. 712 Willow to my lips.

Camwhore attack!

My eyes looks like some kind of thorned rose wtf

Why does half of my face look better than all of my face? x.x

That’s it I guess, I don’t want to turn this blog to place of unprofessional selfies. Maybe one day I’ll learn to take good professional photos of my makeup that I wouldn’t be embarrassed to post (^^,)



Whats your existential fear. 

 Its weird how I got the idea of this from a silly online Disney quiz. The question was “Whats your existential fear?”. My answer was “to make a difference”. How will I be remembered if I die now? The answer is I wouldn’t be remembered for anything. I’ll just cause people pain for my loss, which is better than nothing tbh, but will they say “She was a good person.”, “I never heard her talk about about people” and “She was so selfless” – the shitt we hear being said about whoever is dead. At least I have people around me and I wont just die on the couch only to be found by the stench of my corpse. 

 I want to do something for the world before I die, I don’t want to be just another human to walk on this planet; I want to be someone. And yet, I cant pass school. 

 I used to think that I made a difference to my family and that was definitely enough for me, but I never thought I’d have to die in order for them to realise. I thought on of us [my siblings and I] got sick they’d just wake up from the pain they’re causing us, but that proved to be way wrong… Man was I wrong. I got asthma and turns out my heart muscles are to weak and that never stopped him. Hell I staid in bed for over a weak barely able to wake up and he didn’t even care enough to pick up his phone and call me, didn’t even ask my sister about me and he did know I was super sick. My sister has a huge thing with her health and needs to run a lot of blood tests and heart scan and all he cares about is that he paid money for her gym membership and she didn’t go yet. 

 I don’t want to die like this. I don’t want to die yet, I need to make a difference first. Something big to mend those empty pieces in my life. However, I need to end the misery I’m living first and it doesn’t seem like it will ever end. I know it wont. Its like I’m living in an endless spiral. 

 I do believe that good things happen, but it seems too far from me. I’m physically a short person and apparently short in everything else. 

 I’m just goin to exit this world like I never came. Most probably I wont be judged – I wont have anything to be judged upon. I’m not a bad person, I’ve done good things. I’m not a good person either, I’ve done bad things. I don’t know what I am. Maybe I’m like those corals in the sea. Since they naturally exist, we need them, though when we go swimming we tend to avoid them. 

 I met someone who’s a lot like me but with a huge difference. His existence makes a difference. He’s capable of doing change. He used to be a bad person and accepted this and now is on the road to become better. Maybe this is why he’s not feeling like how I feel, the difference is his life gives him chances/opportunities and mine doesn’t. Good stuff happen, but not to me. This is why I day dream. In my dreams, my life isn’t that different actually however it allows me chances to make a difference. 

 I’m not an ungrateful person. I have a really good mum that I can’t live without and the best friends ever but my life is still meaningless. What I want to do is give my life a definition before I die. 


Photography: Call me, Love

I have always had an obsession with flowers. They’re just so pretty in every state, I especially love them when the pettles start to die. 



  Acrylic and water colour paintings are by my mum. When your mum is an artist, every wall in your house will have a painting by her. 



  This one is my mum’s favourite. 

These two flowers have a really cute/funny story. I was out with mum because she wasn’t feeling well and then when we got up to leave, we passed by a florist and since both of us love flowers we had to buy some. While we were looking at the flowers mum told me to buy her some, unfortunately I didn’t have any money, but she found a way around it and told me she’ll pay for the flowers and we’ll act as if bought them for her and she’ll pretend to be surprised wtf xD anyway after she bought them I took them and ran off, needless to say she was surprised wahahaahahaha xD



he’s not calling because the phone is disconnected 


That’s it ^_^ 

Found this on Tumblr yesterday


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Strawberry Smoothie easy recipe 

いいちご スムージー!![ichigo semuji] I love strawbies, I love everything strawbie. However, I cannot handle fake strawbie flavours. I used to have an allergy from strawberry flavours especially when its in strawberry milk. Even though my body got over the allergy on its own, I still feel vomity when I drink it which makes me not trust anything strawbie flavoured in the markets ~ I prefer to do my own. Except strawbie ice cream. Have you tried Häagen-Dazs’ strawberry cheesecake ice cream? Its da BOMB. 

Anyway on with the turorial! 


  • 1 cup of fresh/frozen strawberries
  • 1/2 cup of yogurt 
  • 1 tbs honey
  • 1tbs flaxseed
  • 3 drops of vanilla extract {optional}
  • Desired amount of milk {optional}



  1. Add everything in the blender except for milk and start blending
  2. Gradually add desired amount of milk as it blends. The purpose of milk here is to change the consistency of the smoothie. If you want it thick then you could skip it, however I like its smooth and creamy so I added around 1/3 of a cup. 

That’s it, you’re done!  Look at how pretty it is! Love how pink it is. Wish I owned Nana/Hachi’s strawbie cup ._.

Don’t forget to double the amount if ingredients if you’re gonna enjoy it with someone or if your like me take a good photo of it then edit it to make it look even more yummy then send it to a friend to make them jealous XD I feed off of my friends jealousy tbh #notagoodfriend 

On a totally different subject. Does anyone watch Pretty Little Liars? Do you think Andrew is -A because even though everything screams that its him, I highly doubt it. I think that he’s on the -A team but he’s not exactly  -A and they’ll reveal who the real -A is next week. Either way they’ll leave us on a huge cliffhanger that will make me want to kill myself 。・°°・(>_<)・°°・。

Polka-Dotted nails

If you’re absolutely obsessed with nail art like me but you don’t have time to spend on doing your nails or maybe just lazy (also like me xD) then polka dot nails are best choice for you. They’re so easy and you wont waste time doing it.

I cant stand having one colour on my nails. I have to have some kind of design going on but I’m almost always to lazy to do something so I’d just look at nail art pictures on and then just mix some ideas together to form a really cute but easy to do design. Also i don’t really have much control when I’m using my left hand to draw on my right hand nails so I’m kinda forced to do something easy.

This time though I wasn’t feeling like creating something or spending time on my nails so I decided to polka dot them and the results are super cute!

I used a nude-ish colour – kinda between pink and brown as a base and a turquoise (my favourite colour) for the dots.

Polka dotting used to confuse the hell out of me for some reason, I always screwed it up i think because I usually started the lines diagonally so I highly recommend dotting in vertical lines.

Idk how i got the scar, probably the cats were using my finger as a chew toy while I slept >.<

I have avoided updating to IOS8 for so long and now that I updated, I totally regret not updating sooner! The iPhone’s photo editor is amazeballs. All of the photos are edited with the iPhone’s editor – I usually used afterlight but now I think I don’t need that much editing apps anymore.

Tbh I really disliked iOS7, the modern theme was probably the only thing I liked about it so I wasn’t very welcoming of iOS8 until I was kinda forced too after a lot of apps created better versions for iOS8 or apps that only work on iOS8.


Mum bought me this ring, I love how super simple and pretty it is!


Losing a friend…

Losing a friend is hard. Especially when you’ve done a lot to them and be treated back with Ungratefulness and realising how shameless the person is. I wasn’t hurt however. I knew from the start that our friendship wouldn’t have lasted, but still I was disappointed.

I received her as a shipwreck and did my best to fix her back and I did a pretty good job even though I didn’t get to finish my work. I’m pretty proud of myself.

Knowing that she needed a lot of help, I still wanted to befriend her and help her out through her rough time. I continuously ignored my friends warning of being near her and stood up for her, reasoning that she was lost and is finally finding her way back on the road.

Being beside her made me happy, not just because I was helping someone but because she unknowingly made me stronger. I didn’t expect to receive shit from this friendship as I knew she was too broken to lend a helping hand and I was okay with that, but know she has something of mine that wont help her any way possible, but you still insist on ignoring me and wont give it back. I did not expect this shameless-ness or rudeness from her.

I expected to be hurt from the way she’s acting and surprisingly enough I’m not. I cannot wait to get my wallet back from her to finally cut all strings that keeps us together. It would relief me from that rage and anger I hold towards her.

As if God is trying to tell me not to care about her, he sent me one of her friends to wish me a new year and just by that he becomes a good friend of mine. He might not be the best person to befriend, but he respects me and faces what he did wrong instead of pretending to be a good person.

“I don’t regret one bit that I let you in my life, though I deeply hope that you would tilt your hear down and look at the gold ring on your finger that I gifted you and feel it burn with shame you should be feeling.”

I really wish she would come back and apologise – no I wont lend her my friendship again but at least I would know that she believes I’ve don’t good for her. I know I did good for her, I don’t need a confirmation. I just want to know it didn’t go to a waste.



Snowflake Nail Art ~

I have not blogged in forever and I feel super bad because the only excuses I have is that either all the projects I’m working on are unfinished or my life is completely boring wtf.

Anyway, here is a nail design I came up with